what's in a name?

What Hecktor Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

A Source of Pride and Jubilation?

It has almost been public knowledge that I have not finished college. Though I tried, it seems to have the penultimate power to free itself from my grasps.

Just last May 30, I graduated with a degree in Nursing. I thought to myself, finally, i can escape the premises of the classroom; my mama - as melodramatic as most moms are - can have her day to shed bucketfuls of tears and do her own little drama moment; and I can finally, look for work and be self-sufficient.

However, I tried to resist the idea of my family having a big celebration in honor of this graduation day. Trust me, I did all my best for it not to push through. I do not have to go through the details of it - I'm a theatre person and you know what we do. Hehe.

As you can see, my efforts were futile - so futile that our quaint little home has been swarmed with relatives, friends and neighbors eager to extend me their congratulations. Lots of kisses landed on my cheeks, lots of hand were offered to shake and lots of smiles and even, laughter thrown around the place on my behalf.

If I were 21 years old, I would have felt okay with it. However, I am years past the age of graduation. It can be a little awkward.

Through it all, I sported the best persona I can, smiling without any care in the world. Of course, who would not be happy of having a () GPA and a medal to boot.

After the smoke has subsided, the real task is finding the best job. I've been searching and constantly looking. There were sure shots; there were uncertainties. I am just waiting for my options to present themselves and choose the best career path.

Graduations are really surreal and ironic. Now, I know it.

Are Singing Contests in Doom?

Being a frustrated singer myself, I have constantly weighed in my mind whether to audition in the various TV shows offering to jump start anybody's career in singing. Aside from nationwide fame it brings, the pride of having to sing to wider audience showcasing the best vocal talent you currently have is in itself a great honor.

That is why, the Pinoy Dream Academy has always been lingering at the back of my mind. If not for the very hectic nursing schedule during the days of auditions, I would have mustered enough resolve and storm to the nearest audition venue possible. However, I did not because I did not have the luxury of time.

Of the recent developments, two scholars from Cebu have made it to the school for singers. Trust me, I am equally proud of them to have gotten that far.

But there are some questions I have long to ask about this talent search cum reality show.

I would have to put it off for some more days though. My mind is in a daze and I need to carefully collect my thoughts.

To be Continued...

Ang Pamumundok at Ang ZTE

Noon pa man, itinatanong ko sa aking sarili kung bakit ang iilan sa atin ay mas piniling iwanan ang umuusbong na buhay sa kabihasnan at ipagpalit sa mas delikadong pakikibaka sa bundok? Bakit mas gugustuhin nilang sa maya’tmayay tumakbo mula sa tumutugis na pwersa ng pamahalaan? Bakit itataya nila ang kanilang mga hiram na buhay para sa isang kawsang tila yata hindi sineseryoso ng ating pamahalaan? Ngayon, unti-unti nang nagkakahubog ang mga sagot sa mga tanong na bumagabag minsan sa aking kamalayan.

Sa kasagsagan ng tila hindi mamatay-matay na NBN-ZTE scandal, hindi ko lubos maisip na ang isang pamahalaang tinagurian pa naman sanang isang demokrasya ay papayagang sanang mangyari o tila yata makalusot ang isang kasunduang sa simula pa lang ang pinutakti na ng butas. Totoo man o hindi, ang lumulobong bilang ng mga saksi ay hindi maitatawa. Ang kumakapal na pahina ng mga ebidensiya ay magsisilbing patunay na marahil ang kaunting nakakaalam ay tinatamasa sana ngayon ang matatawag nilang komisyon. Ang diretsong o hindi tuwid na pag-amin ng mga nasasangkot ay hindi sana mangyayri kung hindi nagkaroon ng aberya ang plinanong kasunduan.

Ako’y nanalangin na ang isang malaking panloloko sa tao at paglulustay sana sa pera ng bayan ay hindi nangyari sa nakaraan, nangyayari sa kasalukuyan o mangyari sa hinaharap. Sa dinamirami nang kabulastugang napatunayan, anong kasiguruhan na hindi ito mangyayaring muli? Tila yata wala na itong patutunguhan..

Sa gitna ng pagtaas ng presyo ng bilihin, hindi isang ZTE scandal ang ating kailangan. Isang pagbabago sa gobyerno, pag-iiba ng pagkatao ng mga nakaupo, at pagpapadami sa diretsong ginagampamnan ang kanilang tungkulin inihabilin sa kanila ng mamayan. Kung hindi, dadami at dadami parin ang mamumundok! Madaragdagan ang magiging kalaban ng gobyerno sa bundok man o sa patag.

Sana naman ang pagbabago’y mangyari sa lalong madaling panahon.

P.S. Salamat kay JCBATAN para sa imahe.

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Have You Ever

Have you ever felt trapped in a world once so familiar?

Have you ever lost touch of something once within reach?

Have you ever felt nude even with clothes on?

Have you ever been blinded by a bright ray in the dimmest of nights?

Have you ever been a stranger to your family and friends?

Have you ever felt the current on still and silent waters?

Have you ever seen yourself perpetuated in others?

Have you ever looked at the mirror and saw no one?

Have you ever felt alone in a crowd?

Have you ever held on to something beyond your grasp?

Have you ever appreciated the taste of something bland?

Have you ever felt ashamed of a convincing achievement?

Have you ever tracked an invisible person?

Have you ever dreamed of bright stars walking on earth?

Have you ever felt the powers-that-be conniving for your exultation?

Have you ever stared blankly with much intent?

Have you ever heard dogs hiccup in the dead of the night?

Have you ever felt swirling on a never-ending line?

Have you ever thought of a million things in split second?

Have you ever had your senses lie to you blatantly?

Have you ever felt your mind play tricks on you?

It has just begun.